out of my comfort zone, and decidedly uncomfortable

i like to think i am open to new experiences…well experiences in my realm. there are things i know i would not do today–bungee jumping, skydiving and yes, swimming with the sharks. i have adventures but they are not the extremes, and sometimes they don’t have to be.

stepping out of my comfort zone is a bit more everyday, a bit pedestrian but still a step out there. this month i am embarking on a 30 day yoga challenge. i will have to be creative to get yoga in every day and will have to try new classes. challenge on!

up until last night, i felt i had evolved my yoga practice and become somewhat enlightened. but it is apparent i have a ways to go. well miles to go to be exact…..miles and miles.

friday night i ventured into a dark candle lit room, quiet and still and very, very full. i sat and let go. or at least i valiantly tried. the class started, and it was 5 mins of expectation and 70 minutes of….well….well it was a lot.

we kicked our feet like 2 year olds, flapped our arms like birds, and staggered left and right somewhere between an 80’s aerobic class and a very bad chorus line. seated we pushed ourselves off of our bums with our fists and laughed–we sounded like a pack of hyenas. we danced and chanted with partners back to back, sweaty and sticky and sang ‘i am beautiful, i am bountiful, i am bliss.’ we proclaimed affirmations – joy, self-love, inner peace, humility, kindness, friendship and more. try as i might, i struggled to find comfort and confidence in this practice. i tried to judge less and let go but still i held back. mercifully after 70 minutes we came to shavasana. i lay down and finally found peace with my mat. it was somewhere i knew.

my inner giggles subsided and agitation screamed silently out loud.  i recognized i was out of my comfort zone, and was decidedly uncomfortable. clearly i’ve got some stretching to do.

will i venture into the class again? maybe, maybe not. there was something about being uncomfortable. it was fresh, it was mindful and it was prickly.  it struck something in the back of my consciousness. it brought about a realization that i am not as free or open as i thought.

i’m probably not ready to get my kicking and chanting back on, but i had an experience with being someplace i am not used to being, AND that awareness was pretty cool.

so tell me, have you stepped outside of your comfort zone lately?


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About ithinkinwords

i love common sense and innovation. the trails, mountains and oceans are magic. i run a little, have recently taken up mountain biking and find bliss in yoga. getting outside everyday and moving is a must! sometimes when i am driving i look into the rearview and think how did i get here? -- last time i looked i was 17 and crossing my fingers my VW had enough gas. well it got me here.

7 responses to “out of my comfort zone, and decidedly uncomfortable”

  1. drowqueen says :

    You might find this funny…http://theburnedhand.com/2011/05/17/karma-is-crack-a-lackin/

    I never tried hot yoga until last year, and at first I wasn’t sure, but the warmth was great. I needed a quiet place to go. As it turns out, I bought a Groupon to go to a new Yoga place and I am avoiding it for the very reasons you stated above. What if it’s not what I thought? I am going Tuesday no matter what…hopefully it will be a great time.

  2. twocentsplus says :

    love it…we avoid what we don’t know, hopefully it will be awesome, and even if it is not i am sure you will get something out of it. namaste

  3. pithypants says :

    Good luck with the 30 Day Challenge. I’ve practiced 3-4 times per week for the last five years, but have never been able to pound through 30 days of it. I think my edge is somewhere around four days. Good luck and namaste!

    • twocentsplus says :

      thank you! i think i will have to do a weekly update and see how it all goes this time around. if you are a 3-4X/week you could do it.!!!..there are moments…but your body goes with the flow…

  4. Stride & Joy says :

    Good luck with your challenge! I had have a tortuous relationship with yoga. I am impressed with those who can really stick with it. Look forward to reading about your 30 days.

  5. happykidshappymom says :

    Congratulations on your new challenge! That’s always something to be proud of. It sounds like you found something pretty special in your new class, and I hope it brings you much peace and happiness. As for comfort zones? Mine is pretty much tiny, so I step out of it with just about all I do. I consider myself an introvert, a quiet person. Yet I’m 5’9″ and I used to be a TV reporter. There was no room for introversion in that life. And when I’m out and about, I simply have to talk to everyone I see. A quick hello, a chat, doesn’t matter. Maybe because talking to others comforts me. I like making people smile, and that’s pretty easy, when you just show good manners and a little compassion. On the days when I’m in a rush, I’m just miserable. No time to say hello or even make eye contact as I hurry my kids wherever we need to be. So I guess my comfort zone is being early. Or living without deadlines. 🙂

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